We never said goodbye

We never said goodbye

You're gone

Been out of reality coming a decade

Yet eveytime i loose my mind I go looking for you 

It's not some conspiracy theory

following no earthly signs will lead me to you

the last time is the last time i am willing to get lost to find you

I know you live on in me

I feel you in my heart and blood

This sickness i have is a gift from you

I am forever greatful

My huge healing heart is because of what i saw you do

Yet was to young to compute what my tiny eyes were seeing

I have never hated you like most others i know

I have and will always love you

See you soon and feel you always

Your Taracik

Rape ?

Rape

A four letter word but so confusing

Even though i have never been "raped"

Does that mean i don't know how it feels for my soul to be raped

No one has really touched me without my consent

But who was in my driving seat

A man who knows how to push a Ladies buttons

Or Me who knows the mans intentions and lets me go through with it

I have raped myself - you tell me what that feels like. 

Tara Sogut Ismail 

Connelly Ward 31.03.2013

Heart Beat

I write poems to my heart beat

I feel the steady flow of him pulsing through my veins

Does this mean we share the same blood?

No music, no confusion - just me Oneself and Him

Do I already know Him?

We have met Soul to Soul but will eye to eye ever come

One can dream

Tara Sogut Ismail

Electric Man

You say you can handle my flow

Yet you have no idea about my conductivity

You can ground the flow through wires

Can you handle my electricity?

You say you want to love me "let me love you"

Yet you haven't even asked to hold my hand

My soft hands are the keys to my heart

If you get a shock from my hands you might just be my one and only

Tara Sogut Ismail