Ever so slowly

Yes I'm falling

Ever so slowly

into your eyes

rising up your spine

settling in your beating heart

never imagined it'd be you 

but you see me

this beautiful young man

full of energy, love, innocence and purity

you know how to touch me

to get into my mind

and how to make me crave you inside of me

But ....... do you know how to love me

Everything you say is so beautiful 

I wonder, do you mean it all 

Or if you're just too smooth

Brazilian and Jamaican roots

A ladies man through and through 

I hope you feel me like you say you do 

Coz you've got into me

mind, body and spirit

my heart and soul moments away 

from opening up to your sweet kiss

but i'm scared 

Scared you see me more clearly than I see you 

Scared you know me better than i know you 

scared you read me like the open book i am 

you're an enigma to me

will you take me as i am and 

love me through and through 

or is this just a game to you 

a notch on your night stand

a number in your black book 

Just scared is what my gut tells me 

be free to love him 

allow him in and just be me 

be free to fall in love with him 

Ever ......so ........slowly........

Tara Ismail

He'll love me 50

They say its in his kiss
But what if he's just a good kisser

If i'm his lady
Why is he not my man

He says he wants my all
But he can't give me all of him

Is that just the way it is....... i don't think so
I'm not having that.

How can I love someone fully
Who's telling me he can only love me 50

He's keeping it 100, but his 100 is my 50.

I can't do it,
I'm feeling exposed, so vulnerable and open and still
only 50 is what he'll give me..... why does he want 100 from me
when he will only give me 50

It's not fair,
well lifes not fair is what he tells me -
WRONG,

my life is fair he doesn't see me,
why would i Choose to love a man who will only love me 50.
why is it a problem for him that I wont love him and his 50.
How cant he understand that 100 needs 100
50 wont do me.

When i give, i give my all
your spirituality is not enough for me i need your humanity,
when he's not with me he's with me in spirit
really - realllllly.
Maybe now and then but always - no!

I need you with me physically
i need to feel you inside of me
outside of me
right next to me
you feel me ?

I need that emotional connection
how can i connect emotionally
with a man who's telling me he can only love me 50

I need that intellectual connection
How can we be connected intellectually
with only half an understanding that 50 doesn't match 100

I need that energetic connection
all chakras in alignment
energy flowing through all centres
Breath to breath, heart to heart, eye to eye, belly to belly, toe to toe and yes loin to loin
you with me ?

Mr 50, he's not you
you say your 50 is another mans 150
just so long as you don't count time and effort....
what does that even mean. how can you not.

Mr 50,
you want to be the man for me
yet you want me to change my needs from a man who i'll call my man?

no. I want it all.
Spiritual you got but i want it all
spiritual, emotional, intellectual,energetic and yes, physical.
the 5 key connections for me

So i'm still looking
still waiting
coz i know he's out there

I wanna know what real love looks like and i know its not going to be found in your eyes.
I wanna know what love is and i know its not me giving up what i want from the one.
I wanna say those vows that you are to spiritual to say..... so you say.
I know when i see him i'll know him
he'll show me what love is.

He'll find me.
when we're ready
we'll know we.

we'll say our vows to each other
under the trees in our favourite woods
swap stones in front of those we love and we'll love each other and all that is together

we'll make beautiful babies, oozing love
with eyes so bright it'll blind the darkest light till only brightness flows through the cracks of fear
they'll be no darkness from these eyes....

a true reflection of what real love creates.

50. you're not the one for me.
50. you dont see me
50.... you wont feel me.

Tara Ismail

Am i a drug to him, Spiritual Man

I wonder 

mmmm i wonder am i a drug to him

or is this feeling the truth 

is he addicted to me 

or does he just feel the magnetism of my womaness

the genuineness of my spirit and soul

the integrity of my heart and mind

The love running through my body

seeping through my limbs

up into my higher centres

expanding out in to his all

Taking control of the moment

am i a drug to him 

or is this a natural high

i sure hope its a natural high 

coz my gosh  i don't want to be a drug to no body

Addiction, one word, so many connotations 

I want someone to be addicted to me 

but in a healthy way

is that possible

Addiction is the wrong word 

I just want someone to love me

and want me in their life all times 

all ways, all days for the rest of time

Addiction, am i a drug to him 

I wonder what he;s thinking

I wonder what he's feeling

is he a drug to me 

am i addicted to all that i see and feel in him 

addiction is the wrong word

I am just hooked on this feeling

this glowing 

this knowing 

that all he wants from me is me..... to love to hold & to truly love him

i feel it and i know it

you're so scared of me,
more scared than i have ever been

to give your heart to me 

i feel it tremble at the thought 

you know i would never hurt you
yet you think it might just be possible that you love me more than i love you 

that you feel me,
more than i feel you 

are you serious

spiritual man 

come down to earth and be a real man

embrace your humanity as well as your spirituality

be free to love me 

be free to trust me

feel free to touch me 

dont be scared 

i would never hurt you 

i will always be real with you 

and i will always want you in my life 

coz spiritual man, you are a beautiful man 

and i love you just the way you are

sweet spiritual man. 

love and let live.
im not dangerous for you 

and nor are you for me

we are that we are 

sweet spiritual man 

be free n let me be me

a turbulent wave of emotion

of passion free from fear of pain 

embracing all that is to learn from us.

im not saying it will be easy 

two spirits with a connection so deep so quick 

you see me and i see you just dont be scared to feel me 

you wont loose me. 

spiritual man

Disconnected from the world of pain 

so high on his light 

3D eyes closed yet 3rd eye wide open 

when he sees me what does he see

a big ball of light, fluffy rainbows, sunshine, 

pure love is what he sees

yet what are his 3D eyes afraid of

what his 3D heart cant candle

Higher heart wide open

lower heart trapped in cages

scared of being vulnerable 

scared to really look at me 

to open his wide eyes 

to see whats right in front of him

when he looks at me what does he see

spiritual man

can you feel me 

Tara Ismail

Man of my dreams

A smile that melts my heart

as he looks into my eyes

he breathes new life into my soul

he has the key

That o so precious key that fits my hearts door

o so perfectly, so smoothly and so tenderly

I've held my heart open to all

Yet hidden from any potential man of my dreams

Scared of being vulnerable with him

Yet knowing i wont know love unless i let him in

Who are you

This man of my dreams

As I peirce though your eyes

I see your soul and I trust you

I know you would never hurt me

I open my all to you

I hand my heart to your strong hands

knowing you want nothing more than to cherish it

You see all the love i have to give

and you love me, mind body, spirit and soul

We play, we sing, we dance and we make sweet music together forever

eye to eye has finally come

my dream man is a real

for every yin has its yang

and my gosh am i a super yin

I'll wait as long as it takes for you

Just a taste is all i need from you

To know my dream man is a real man

who's been dreaming of me too

I love you now

I miss you already

eye to eye, heart to heart and soul to soul

I feel you so close to me

Tara Ismail

He's got that vibe

Yes he's got that vibe

So smooth with his words

So real with his smile

and so fierce with his eyes

An animal, pure love, instinct and passion

Pure heart, mind and soul

So innocent yet still so cheeky

So playful yet still so serious

Ambitious yet so humble

Pure raw talent, that's him, yes he's got that vibe

Everything he casts his attention on glows

Coz yes

He's got that vibe

The walk, the talk, the way he communicates his whole energy in everything

I feel you my Mr Vibe

You got it,

You got that vibe

I wonder if you can make me dizzy for you

SPinning me round n round, up and down

I'm tingling for you

my whole being crying out for you

my gosh I need that vibe

DAncing together in the moonlight

Kissing in the rain

Making sweet love through the mind of the one in us two

Yes we become one

Coz we've got that vibe

Tara Ismail

Brian

Brian

The first one i really saw

and through seeing him he stood up to really see me 

seeing him in our eyes

The eyes of the one who knows 

we are both just human

a Beautiful soul

Individual

Loving

Kind 

And so grateful

I never had a penny to give him 

Nor did he ask

For the convo and big hugs he was so grateful

The connection so deep and real when he looked at me he really saw me

AS i did him 

Still human 

This beautiful scottish man

on the freezing cold streets of holborn london

So cold on the street

The pavement icy pavements i could feel through the soles of my feet

Imagine the cold on this beautiful mans body as he just sits their patiently waiting smiling and loving all who crosses his path

On the streets he begs for food to eat

smiles for you to smile

and laughs for you to laugh with him

Still human 

God bless my friends on these streets and God bless Rhymes for taking me out with him this night

Perspective opening mind and heart changing was this evening no doubt 

and i am forever grateful.

God bless homeless reach

That hot mint chocolate, he was so grateful

The hat, the lovingly hand made scarf, the gloves and the dry warm socks

he was so grateful.

For the convo and hugs 

Yes we were so grateful

I hope to see you again someday this encounter will be with me always 

no one has ever looked into my eyes the way he did that night

full of joy and wonder and even a touch of surprise 

so beautiful we said as we looked into eachothers eyes

I am so grateful

One race, one humanity and one love

Still human 

some roofless 

Tara Ismail